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[14 Mar 2009|11:59am] |
Dear,
Girl with green eyes and brown hair. I hope to see you tonight. I didn't get enough of you last weekend.
Love,
Brandon
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| get a grip |
[23 Dec 2008|10:41pm] |
The holidays have been a blur. They came way to fast and I honestly am unhappy with myself for not getting anyone gifts. I'm sorry to all but here is why if you would like to believe me.
I work to much. Monday, Wednesday, and Thursdays I am assigned to be in the data center to have 24x7 support there. I end up working about 9 hours since I have to wait for someone to show when my shift is over.
I have no time off for the holidays. I'm asking for one day so I can go to big bear for a weekend. Yes I work Christmas and New Years. 10pm to 7am please kill me...
My daily routine during the week from Sunday night is work at 10pm. I get home from between 6am and 8:30am depending if I am at the data center or not. I usually read before I go to sleep around 7-10am. Wake up in the late afternoon if I'm lucky and try to hang with family/friends. The usual coffee bean before work and then to work again. Weekends I try to have fun depending on if my sleep schedule allows. Sometimes I get to be active while the sun is up but usually I'm fighting my boredom at night when everyone sleeps.
As opposed to that I find myself in an almost constant state of uncertainty. I don't understand it clearly. Should I go back to school? What should my new promised work hours be? I have been doing graveyard for 2 years now. For the most part I appreciate my job. Its was like a second family until we started growing so much adding new people to the group which isn't a bad thing. The money is good. It supports my wants. I could go on complaining but I fear I have done that enough for the pass month so I'll just let it sit in the back of my mind.
Another part of this uncertainty is my current situation aside from work, family, and friends. I feel I have almost become obsessed in my mind that this is what I need. Seeing it I disregard it. Not sure what I should do. Thinking about it makes me want to embrace it and I ponder the thought of how to obtain it. My mind always composed of a simple thought that I will probably never have it. So then why do I want it so bad? Certain obstacles are placed particularly in the way. I know it is not my choice it has to want me too. Maybe I'll never find out.
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[10 Sep 2008|01:11am] |
I made this.
I like it.
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| Easy Confidence |
[13 Jun 2008|04:27am] |
It was seemingly simple and romantic but not within the setting. It was soft, sweet, and smooth. Honestly one of the most perfect first moments I have ever had. I wasn't even nervous.
She's leaving in 5 days. What did I get myself into?
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[29 May 2008|08:51am] |
Yesterday scared me. Just seeing a person I barely know in pain and the uncertainty of what the out come would be was no good at all. I did as much as I could to help. I'm glad I was semi prepared. You know me I always have the items that you think you'd never need... but when you need it I have it. It was a sickening sight but I cleaned and dressed the wound. There was a lot of blood. You feel entirely different with blood on your hands.. Soon after lifeguards came and then the paramedics to take them off to the hospital. We rode our bikes to the HB hospital and waited. Didn't get the chance to see them but talked to their mother. X-rays were being taken.
She fell off her bike and hit her head. Scraped up her left side of her body and the skin on her right toes were hanging off by flaps. She said she couldn't talk when she was laying on the ground holding her head. The lifeguards and paramedics put a neck brace on her and I helped put her on a stretcher.
I was very pleased to find out she just has a sprained neck and back.
This was one of those feelings where you think wow. I made a difference and I never want something like this to happen to anyone.
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| So.... |
[02 Apr 2008|05:23am] |
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I guess I'm updating this like a 14 year old lately one because of my boredom at work and maybe making up for all the times I maybe should have but didn't. Anyways I just realized since the beginning of this school year. Fall and this current Spring semester have gone to shit. And reading back made me think of how much I don't know what to do with my life and how I am not to certain about my job or school. Then I can ramble on to other things but that doesn't matter. Can't change the past. Well yep.. sitting at work as usual. give me a life.
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[31 Mar 2008|05:04am] |
Dropped C++ retarded teacher. Thinking about dropping PHYSC100 I start an 8 week class today. I've just given up on school I guess. I'm still in intermediate photo 191. Didn't do one assignment and I haven't started one that is due tomorrow. Beginning photoshop online I have done one assignment they are all due at the end of May. I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I think about my current situation and it looks like I just want to work. I like the money but do I really need it? I bought a mountain bike last Thursday. Went and biked the top of the world with Ver. It was way dope. At shit and crazy steep hills but it was totally worth it. Going every weekend from now on.
I guess if I were to quit everything right now that's all I would do. Go camping, biking, climbing.... I think I just need a break. I'm fed up with work. I haven't had a legitimate break since maybe Christmas or the week after but I only took work of because I was really sick. So it barely counts..
Someone just tell me what to do...
I can't work these/this many hours and go to school I guess. And have a life. If I don't drop PHYSC100 I will have work sleep class. work sleep a little free time class. work sleep class. 3 days in a row. I don't think I can do that. I'll end up sleeping all day until class then have to go to work... Yeah.. shit i don't know.. I'm at work right now. See ya.
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[30 Jan 2008|06:40am] |
So I'm going to write this as quick as I can. Because I am at work and have 20 minutes left before I leave. Work is going pretty good I knocked 2 hours off my 35hr weekly 12am-7am hours. Making me get off at 5am on Tuesdays for class at 245pm. Turns out yesterday I dropped that bs class because it would be too time consuming. So I replaced it with something way and completely easier. Online beginner photoshop. I'm also taking Photo191 Intermediate Digital Photography, CS Intro to C++ programing with Cobb, and PHYSC 100 for the last 8weeks in March. So school should go pretty smoothly.
Lately I have pretty much been working two jobs. The other one that is not my M-F 12am - 7am datacenter, networkninja, techsupport one is for my dad. I basically am a computer technician for a tax firm in Newport. So I've been having to go there between 10am-12pm to do ish. Getting like 2hrs of sleep which is pretty heavy while being sick. But I'm pretty much better and that has slowed down. Although you never know... it is tax season. This will happen every year. Anyways it has its upsides since I get paid $25 an hour. And for unscheduled appointment basically call-ins I get $100 per visit. So I'm makin some money. Ha also to note that I have a kind of side project consulting for people who want to purchase computers or just need something fixed or a type of network installed. Going rate is 20/hr so if you got the money I got the time. For serious if anyone needs anything like that call me or cobb up. We're gonna start a business.
9 days till my mini winter vacation that has been extremely overdue. Flight out to Phoenix, drive to Flagstaff. Snowboarding. Hanging out. Relaxing... Sounds perfect. JTree and Red Rock for a week in March for spring break. That Including Red Rock Rendezvous a rock climbing festival. Let me know if you're interested.
Yeah so this took way to long. 10mins. Oh well. Gonna go.
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[05 Dec 2007|05:12am] |
Fixed the picture. Let me know if it doesn't work again.
I made this almost a year ago for my ex girlfriend. I found it on my computer. Tell me what you think of it. The letters are actually the moon with my camera on an 8 second shutter moving my camera to create the letters. Compiled in Photoshop of course. Not that easy...
Besides that. I'm at work right now. Really slow night. So that is kind of good. Just get to relax pretty much. A little bored so this is why I am updating now... School absolutely blows. I'm failing my classes that I paid for. Humm... well I guess do better next time. I guess my fall semester schedule didn't really have any thought to it. Hence, shitty. Oh well I can handle it I guess. One week left. I get my Dell on Friday and my 32" LCD for Christmas. I will never leave my room.
My life: I go to work at 11:45pm and get home around 7:20am Sunday night though Friday morning. I get Friday and Saturday nights off. After work I usually go to sleep of hang with my mom for a bit. I've been falling a sleep around 10am lately. So I wake up in the range of 4pm or 5pm. Sometimes I sleep all day get up at 9pm or even 11pm to go to work. I have class Monday 5pm-7pm that I haven't been to in 5 weeks. Tuesday anthro 6:35pm-9pm. Thursday cisco 6pm-10pm sucks. Some where in between sleeping I rock climbing with David or as of recently Arin. Also probably at least once during the week Coffee Bean. Which is nice because I get to see Nick. I'm glad I get to see him more than I used to. Weekends hang with the bros. Maybe a party.
That's it no girls... Which I do not want to disclose since I keep that to myself.
Things to look forward to: Arin/Ver/Brett/Brandon(s) show(9th), School ending(13th), Formal Christmas party(14th), Making Tamales(22nd), Christmas(25th), New Years(Jan 1st), ....., March 21st - 31st Spring Break a week and a half in the desert. J Tree Rock climbing with Erich 3-4 days then Red Rock climbing 3-4days with Erich, Cobb, Wes, maybe Others. Including Red Rock Rendezvous to finish it up in Red Rock. FREE BEER! haha.
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[29 Nov 2007|09:26pm] |
$1,119.34
Dell Vostros 400
core2duo 3.0ghz 1333FSB
2GB DDR2 800mhz
Nvidia GeForce 8600 256MB GTS
Wow, already stoked. Getting it next week. In time for Christmas when I get my 32' LCD TV for my room. This is pretty much my first real purchase since I got my job. Sweet... Now I just need another 2GB of memory, Canon zoom lens - 28 mm - 105 mm, bberry case, and christmas presents for my fam/friends. I guess work is good for a reason.
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| Work... |
[15 Nov 2007|06:50am] |
So there wasn't much to do from 3am to 7am so I was gonna watch two movies. Turns out one doesn't work and the other is not in English. So after I cool off and delete those stupid movies I turned to a little bit of myspace then youtube. I usually stay clear of youtube. I have no idea how I found this but I basically watched someones life for a year. Someone I have never met and don't...well didn't even know. I guess I just got caught up in her. She seems like an awesome girl. I would not mind meeting her. And it's a little more practical than the first time I found a girl on the internet. It was actually on here. Weird...anyways maybe I'll update later about work and life. I need to get out of this office and on the road.
-Home
Read this again. I'm not looking for chick on the internet. haha. Although it would probably be interesting... Anyways goodnight.
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[07 Sep 2007|06:39am] |
I am really happy. School is going. It's not that bad. My Cisco networking class is a lot but I can handel it. Work is going good. The hours are getting to me because for some reason I have only been getting 5 to 6 hours of sleep during the week but whatever right... Met this amazing girl that I really like. This is almost a total turn around for me and I am glad.
Well it's the weekend for me now so sleep, rockclimbing, ....something fun tonight?
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| End of summer????? |
[21 Aug 2007|02:22am] |
This is from the bottom...Does ANYONE want to go to Big Sur this weekend? No need to answer that because I probably already know the answer...nope... Thinking about it I probably won't go anyways. I just wanted to go camping before the summer was over but I guess that isn't going to happen. Should I really feel this tied down? Ah fuck it anyways. I don't want to write anymore.
End of Summer?
I guess so... It was honestly pretty good although I don't think I did much at all. I definitely partied but then again who wouldn't. I'm bummed I only went camping once and that was to Joshua Tree for like 2 days with David. It was pretty good but we didn't do much. It was totally worth it though. Haha. I wanted to go camping with all of the guys but that just never happened... I didn't go on any vacations. Maybe besides the one with work. That was pretty sweet (Laughlin, hotel room, sea doo's, kettle one, drunk,...) but I just ended up getting sick after. Staying at Arin's was a pretty good load off the mind. Not having to worry about anything. Come home from work in the morning and sleep in the bright ass guest house. Wake up and drink vodka tonics with Arin after he got off of work. That was definitely chill. Thanks Arin I really did appreciate that. I would work all week Monday though Friday 12am to 7am. Sleep until around 3pm or something then hang and work some more. Party on weekends. Then work again. Now I am working 10pm to 7am. School starts next week. I mainly have afternoon classes like at 5pm. So I work after class until 6am or 7am. Sleep then class. We'll see how that goes. I might have to take some time off. My class are hopefully going to be cool. 2 computer classes and Antro 100. I'm interested to see how my schedule is. I really wanted to take a photography class but I pretty much took all the ones worthy at gwc. Still single. I guess pretty much over it. I keep thinking if I'm wasting my time here with what I am doing. It's the uncertainty that creates this. Do I work too much? Well...anyways I wrote this at work so whatever right... I'm moving this next part to the top so hopefully people will read that party instead of this huge one. If you read this thanks. Now all I've got going is rock climbing...Last week I went 4 times. It felt good. A busy week. Thanks David for making me go. This girl Katie that is pretty damn good at rock climbing left Monday to Ecuador for The World Youth Championship. A lead and speed climbing competition. She had a type of going away party at ClimbX to raise money to go since the US basically just gave her a uniform i guess... I took a bunch of pictures and I'll post them later. I'm pretty bummed she left. The next time she is back is December... Oh well...I guess.
This was way long.
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[31 May 2007|06:36am] |
I'm glad I kept it together and went to work this week when stuff went to shit. I feel responsible.
Why do I like this song? Lady Sovereign - Love or Hate Me
Haha I know I'm lame. But if you have never heard it...listen to it.
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| JT |
[26 May 2007|08:44am] |
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Growing a beard in Joshua Tree with David.
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| This used to be... |
[25 May 2007|03:21am] |
She makes me happy. She nods her head when her eyes are closed and I kiss her on the cheek. As if the reassurance is there.
She is so amazing. Most of the time I can't find the words to describe it. I think of her and it just makes me happy.
(found this tonight) bummer...
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| It's Late |
[17 May 2007|02:37am] |
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I am feeling really accomplished right now. I was in the worst mood earlier. I friggin kicked this computer problem in the ass. For all you computer savvy, I'll try to keep it simple, there was a process called svchost.exe that basically cause my computer/cpu to run at 100%. If I left it running it would burn up my computer. So I read up on the problem on line for about and hour and found out how to do it. Thank god for forums and what not. There was a program kind of like task manager but more detailed on what you can do. So I stop a process in side of the svchost one and that did the trick. I'm pretty sure with the right instruction anyone could do it. Anyways it turned out to be automatic updates pretty much so I in turn disabled that. Stupid Microsoft doesn't even have a fix for it yet. Lame. Anyways just though I'd write about this because I feel great now. Haha. I'm trying to compile pictures together for my 10 photo final for Digital Photography. Laguna Beach to day blew so bad. It was over cast. The beach and top of the world sucked. Oh well. School is almost over so that is good. More work. Every night 12am - 6am. That should be interesting. Meeting Friday. Maybe rock climbing. Hockey at 7:40pm. Party. Joshua Tree Saturday morning. Probably by myself to meet up with my rock climbing class where I don't even know anyone. Well I gotta run. Later.
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[03 Mar 2007|12:52pm] |
Well, I can say it has been a while since I've updated. Ha. Life is good. This semester of school is ehh. I wish it could be better. I'm taking Poly Sci with Leigh. That's a pretty chill class besides the last minute paper I wrote. Pre Cal is kicking my ass. I have been slacking off too much in that class. I probably failed the first test. I'll try to turn that around. I hate the way my teacher teaches it though. Oh well. Digital Photography is a sweet class but my camera is broken so there is really no point. I get it back in 6 weeks maybe. I'll probably end up taking it again next semester. And lastly ROCKCLIMBING! Haha seriously the doppest class because I love rock climbing. I try to climb at least 3 days a week. Oh and Nick is in the class too. He is progressing very well for his first time. And not to mention a trip to the biggest rock climbing festival with my boys Wes, Erich, and Cobb. Then another to JT with the class. So hopefully I can pull this semester off with some good grades.
My girlfriend = AMAZING
She might deny it but she is. Cute, Sexy, Smart, and Fun. There isn't anything more I could ask for. Our relationship is pretty chill, if not to add, great. And not to over rate the world "chill" but we hang out and have our own time. Then we do our own thing. Maybe an occasional get together or party but otherwise it is great. I am comfortable with the feeling that she will always be there for me. I love her.
IF YOU DIDN'T READ ALL OF THAT THEN I ADVISE YOU TO READ THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WARNING!!!!
The following statement might shock you.
I GOT A JOB! Title: Support Technician I
I am now employed by a legit company. Haha, yes I said legit. I work for Krypt Technologies with Branden Cobb. I just trained with him for the past week. It was pretty fun. I work 18 hours a week. M T W 12am-6am. I start that this Monday and I have to see if I can live with these hours. I decided to work them because they needed someone to, and I don't have school on those days so I'll just crash when I get home. The job is pretty easy but I have a lot to learn. It is pretty much a computer nerd job. Only a select few can do the type of work we do. Haha. I am looking forward to the extra cash though. Maybe if I like you enough I'll buy ya something pretty. Haha.
Well that is pretty much it for now. Catch you later. Oh, did I mention that my girlfriend is amazing?
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